Thursday, October 30, 2014

Mental Roadblocks

I've completed 8 weeks of Body Beast and am onto my last phase. This has been the most rewarding and challenging program I've done.  The challenge has been more mental then physical.  Let's face it, not everyone thinks women should be pumped up or muscular and those thoughts sometimes work against me. 

As I get deeper into the program, I'm finding myself wanting to physically achieve more then just completing the program.  I have a desire to see how far I can take my body physically.  I know that in order for me to do this, I need to first be mentally strong and healthy.  I've preached that being healthy is both mental and physical but can honestly say that I'm still struggling on the mental part. 

I'm still trying to figure out how to live in the gray.  Life doesn't need to be an all or nothing, a black or white or a 100% in all the time.  Living in the gray means there is balance and harmony between two extremes.  This is something I still need to find.  In order to take my body to the next level, I need clear my mind of the thoughts that are holding me back.  No one can achieve their goal with mental roadblocks. 

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Learning To Fail

I've always loved winning. 
I've always loved the feeling of success.
I've always loved working hard.

I've always hated the feeling of failure.

 I remember growing up and feeling knots in my stomach when I felt like I had failed at something- sports, school, friends.  Nights before tests or events I would get so nauseous that I didn't eat and sometimes would vomit.  Being scared of failure has had its benefits.  I was always so terrified of not being at the top that I always seemed to make it there.  In school it was with marks, sports it was being on varsity and in my professional life it was climbing up the corporate ladder.

Once I became a stay at home mom, being scared of failure was still in my mind but there was no tangible rewards such as a pay raise or an A+ on a paper.  No matter how often my husband told me I was doing a great job or how many times my girls told me they loved me, I still felt something missing inside of me. I started to recognize the feeling I was missing was the feeling of my own personal success.

A couple of years ago I started signing up for an event in the winter, training through the cold months and then competing in the spring.  Having my own personal goal again was just what I needed.  I still have the fear of failure- probably more than I should but I also have the drive to succeed.  Failure is oftentimes the gateway to success.  It feels uncomfortable but it's a sign you were willing to take a risk.

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Grilled Chicken with Black Bean Mango Salsa

Pumpkins are everywhere. Sweaters now line our closets and jackets are needed at the morning bus stop.  I'd say Fall has officially hit the Northeast.  Although I love the cool breeze in the morning and cozy clothes, I'm not ready to give up the grill.  I will literally grill out until there's too much snow that I can't reach the grill.  

This summer we tried this awesome recipe from Skinnytaste which worked out perfectly for our family.  I was able to make the salsa for the side which kept it separate from the girls' chicken- God forbid the two touch.  Not only is this a tasty meal but it's only 261 calories per serving. 

Servings: 4 • Size: 3 oz chicken, 2/3 cup salsa

16 oz (2) boneless skinless chicken breasts, trimmed, sliced in half lengthwise salt and fresh cracked pepper, to taste
3 cloves minced garlic
1 teaspoon cumin
1/2 teaspoon dried oregano
juice of 1 lime

For the Black Bean Mango Salsa (makes about 2 1/2 cups):
1/4 cup red onion chopped
3 tablespoons lime juice
1 tablespoon olive oil
salt, to taste
1 cup black beans, rinsed and drained
1 ripe mango, peeled and diced
1/4 cup fresh cilantro, minced
1 jalapeño, chopped (keep seeds if you want it spicy)


1. Season chicken with salt and pepper and place in a large non-reactive bowl with remaining ingredients, toss well to coat and refrigerate at least 1 hour.

2. In a medium bowl, combine the red onion, lime juice, olive oil and season with salt, to taste. 

3. Mix well then combine with the remaining ingredients; refrigerate until ready to serve.

4. Heat the grill or a grill pan to medium high, discard the chicken marinade and grill the chicken breasts about 3 minutes on each side, or until the center is cooked through. 

5. Serve the chicken topped with mango black bean salsa or on the side if you have picky eaters :)
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